Marriage is day after and there are many thoughts running through my mind. I wish someone would have the patience to listen to them and give me answers.
I know I am marrying the right guy… I never doubted that. I have answered that question a million times by now… “Are you sure? Will you be happy with him? Is this what you want?”… It is irritating being asked. I mean, nobody makes such a big decision on a whim. It is well thought out on every front.
I am guilty also… very. My parents don’t deserve it… they don’t deserve to be hurt… they have been nice parents overall… no complaints. But I cannot marry anyone else… I have been unable to explain that to parents… they are too prejudiced to understand my feelings. I don’t blame them… thats the way they have been brought up. And yet… their behavior in past few months is inexcusable.
It is my life… and I’d rather make a wrong decision than live someone else’s right decision. Thats the way I am…
This is a very difficult phase of my life… probably the worst. And I hope I get through it stronger. I am becoming hard hearted. Nothing moves me now. Sometimes I hate and resent them. Its not fair. I have a right to my life.
If there is someone above… please make them hate me less… and I hope they come around… someday.
Swollen Tomato 
April 17, 2009 at 12:48 am
I miss you… sometimes you just have to take a step back, put negative feelings aside, and find a middle-ground with parents where you get what you want and they are not offended by your behavior, but a pre-condition is that you have to care enough…
April 17, 2009 at 11:11 am
Go ahead after all life is never perfect. We always strive to achieve one. Its all about sacrifices.tc
April 17, 2009 at 12:26 pm
Congrats for your d-day.Just felt like telling you that donot think anything right now cz your D-day is round teh corner ,n u shud cherish every moment to its fullest…as for your parents ,things wud flow your way slowly when they wud see u happy post marriage.Iv been married for 2+ years now,yes had a love marriage too,n wud just tell u one thing….life had its ups n downs ,post marraige life does change a lot esp for girls,it is a wee tough if ur managing both work n home…but never let your parents know of any problems u face..the family u might be going to wud have a completely different way of doing evry thing…if u can be like water n take the shape of the vessel ur being put into…life wud always give u the best vessel to be poured into..::):),tk care
April 17, 2009 at 2:47 pm
ur getting married…congrats!
April 17, 2009 at 4:11 pm
@Fadfashion: That is just side stepping the “real issue”… No point treating the symptoms and ignoring the problem… I miss all of you 2.
@Irfan: Thanks…
@Nikita: Thanks… but I disagree with your perspective… I am marrying a guy with who life is going to be the same… no major changes/adjustments. As for the water and vessel theory… why do women have to adjust? Why are men never asked to do the same? I think adjustments should come from both sides… And as for parents knowing about problems… every problem should be shared and not hidden. Relax… life does not change sooo much after marriage
@Tushar: Thanks
April 17, 2009 at 11:36 pm
FYI I COMPLETELY disagree with Nikita… You should reach out to family if you have problems and not be or feel alone. Especially a part of the family that you can reach out to. Never feel like you have to deal with things on your own. People are independent, but no one is an island. People make the mistake of going through their lives wanting and being independent, but independence is not lost if you reach out to family due to problems. That is why they are called FAMILY and not acquaintances or friends.
April 17, 2009 at 11:38 pm
Sweetheart life DOES change after marriage no matter what you say or think. Why don’t we revisit this in say 1-2 years and have this discussion again 🙂
May 2, 2009 at 11:52 pm
Sure